Depression      

You are the literal universe
Not the center either
but the whole thing

Your blood is a galaxy
While your heart is a star
fuming with love and lust

But on your darkest days
Your eyes turn into black holes
Your soul turns into an empty void
destroying everything and anything you ever loved

Your bones that once structured your whole world
will crumble and turn into a dust of dullness

The scientist will diagnosis you with a word
that will be meaningless to you but still makes your heart skip a beat

But know that you're not broken
Your body of the universe is just expanding and growing
in this rather cruel world where we all have to call home

                                      

                                     Melancholy

                                       Smoke Melancholy       

In that period of time he began pouring his trust into a half a pint cups of local beer and cheap cigarettes, local as well, which he could afford, who would have guessed?...
He used to gaze at girls with a curious and contemplative look that was also full with sadness and despair, instantly advocating for the holy mission and function of the prostitutes and the escort ladies and he already a abandoned the idea of having a pet except the turtle.
From time to time he use to scribble incomprehensible prose and poetry and couldn't find any condolence even in Hemingway or Cobain.
His only consolation was with the pen and watching the sunset off the sandy sea shore, for he could be sure that the same sun isn't dying buy only moving to a better place.
It seemed like he will leave after him numerous beginnings for stories and a lot of middles as well...
Sometimes, it would have seems to him that the first end he's going to write is going to be his own.
Leaving behind communities of characters that all their world is nothing but a few words, that seems like they are going to prosper and blossom but they were faded and gone like the sole of the candle's flame on top of a birthday cake, which was blown off while giggling her childhood laughter, leaving behind a delicate and curly thread of smoke, that is gone in a blink of an eye.
At the age of twenty-two he began writing his own eulogy, like this miserable old woman, preparing her own shrouds, but from that too he was finely despaired.

                                   Malancholy      

Again I hide in the empty shadows
like a lumbering beast
felled by the pain of an ancient wound

A familiar suffocating grief
flows along salty streams
that carry me to sleep's warm embrace

I am gone, lost, fading day by endless day
hearing only the hum of the living world
and the endless ticking of the clock

Blindly I've stumbled upon
the well worn pathways of self rebuke
so strangely reassuring to me now

The ghosts smell blood in the water
already they are circling
sleep, sleep, blessed black velvet sleep

                                         Melancholy      

Hello my love,
It's that time of the year again.
I've brought flowers and melancholy.
Time to sit under your oak,
Time to sprawl by your stone.
I wonder if you hear my stories.
Do you see my hot tears?
Are my jokes and pleas swept away on the wind?
Do not say that you cannot hear.
Don't say that you cannot see.
I need you to hear the words I never said.
I need you to see the love I seldom showed.
For I do hear you speak.
I hear you in my most sacred dreams.
I feel the whisper of your breath through these grasses.
I swim in your sound on this hilltop.
Tell me the words that I have been sobbing:
I
Love
You.

                                    Sunset on the lake

                                Melancholy     

Sinking hearts, going down
Thought I'd be better again
Why be so silly
And let emotions rule you
Why be so senseless
And let someone know you

No one thought in the beginning
I'd be so lonely and sad
No one thought
I'd be so melancholy and grave

Why let gloomness rule you
Why let grave thoughts haunt you

I'd love to be back
From where I started all this
I'd love to get all the things
I used to dream of
I'd love to know
That someone did care
When I said I'd be flying to the moon oneday.

                                     

                                              Sunset

                                          Melancholy        

Slowly drifting
Fading fading
Sitting still with no rhyme or reason
Routine routine
Yes sir yes ma’am
Yes we’re very pleased
Well I’m not
But that doesn’t matter I suppose
Call me melancholy
Bringer of gloom and pessimism
Never shying from reality and realistic tendencies
Sitting sitting
Waiting
But for what?

                                  

                                  Beautiful landscape

                                    Melancholy     

You call this a journey,
so I'm looking for my path.
Feeling lost beyond this road;
in a state of confusion
with no more comfort illusions.
I'm going nowhere,
yet feeling rushed.
Just looking for some answers,
to questions not even known.
Like a dark cloud pending rain,
I'm waiting for my downpour.
I'd ask for your hand,
but I don't even know where I am.

                                           Sunset

                                          Melancholy     

Melancholy,
you spiteful bitch.
Creeping in,
seeping ever deeper
into my bones.
Nestling in and making
a nice little home for yourself.
You weren't invited in here
And yet you come in, obviously
planning a lengthy stay.
Please just go the fuck away.
I can't stand it
when you come around
And hound me from the inside
Pounding on my brain
Controlling my very
train of thought
And surrounding my soul.
You threaten to
swallow me whole
You ravenous whore
And to tell the truth
I'm utterly bored with
this little dance we have.
Just stop, cease this game.
You have no place here.

                               Beautiful landscape

                                     Nostalgie      

Unde numai nu te-am căutat,
chiar şi-n haosul sufletului meu,
doar cenuşa -m găsit unde cortul ţi-a stat,
fără semn despre calea ta, drumul tău.

Apă, aer și lumină-
nimic de soarta ta nu știu,
plecată fără veste, vino,
redă speranţa unui sufletul pustiu.

M-alintă uneori fantomele mângâerilot tale,
cu voluptate mă sărută visul buzelor de foc,
mă chinuie regretele de ne-mpăcare,
mă ceartă ceasul rău de nenoroc.

Apă, aer și lumină-
nimic de soarta ta nu știu,
plecată fără veste, vino,
redă speranţa unui suflet pustiu.

Atât de mult neputinţa mă doare;
să trăiesc nu pot a doua oară viaţa,
să iubesc din nou a tinereţii floare,
leac de dor să-mi fii în ceas de dimineaţă.

Apă, aer și lumină-
nimic de soarta ta nu știu,
plecată fără veste, vino,
redă speranţa unui sufletul pustiu.

                                            Noaptea     

Noaptea după care zorii nu se mai aprind...
e undeva în drum, EA vine,
tristă fantomă, un ultim gând,
umbra luminii.

Noaptea după care reveniri nu mai sunt;
caleidoscop de culori, lacrimi de dor,
în memorie nu se mai aprind,
frumoase amintiri cu dulce fior.

Noaptea după care alte nopţi nu mai vin...
scrise şi nescrise toate filele-n ultima noapte rămân,
cu trandafirul uitat în pocalul cu vin,
cu visul devenit peste noapte strein...
.....................................................................
Niciodată n-ai să afli,
cât te- am căutat printre aştri;
tu eşti în alt univers,
fără iubire... şi vers.